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\u00a0 \u00a0 With \u00a0big eyes she has this look that makes everyone be careful around her, and sometimes no one talks to her, like an invisible person who walks around the city; without shadow, without scent, without existence.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0No one sees her hiding behind an angry look and a careless face, protecting herself from this world that she prefers to escape. She wants to live in her own inner world, in her books, or inside uncompleted stories that she tries to create.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0Those stories she tried to write once. But her problem with the uncompleted \u201cthings\u201d is that she gets attached easily and this makes it impossible to \u00a0move on. The same thing happened with the stories. She starts to live the characters more than writing it. <\/b>She gets attached to everything, she builds a connection. Once she fell in love with a time traveler who forgot which time he was originally in and kept wandering through the time looking for the woman he loved. She thought that she is \u00a0the missing lover that he left at some point that he can not remember and she keeps thinking about ways to bring him to her world, or maybe she feels that she is that time traveler! Maybe left herself at one of her books and keeps going back reading the old books looking for herself? Or what about the uncompleted story that had a dancer who lost her ability of doing any dance moves. \u00a0Is that related to her own problem when she found herself wandering in the world of words, losing the ability to write? \u00a0Maybe she is simply afraid of writing her own destiny by writing sad or unpredictable endings.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 She is trapped in her mind, starting to lose connection with the reality. It crossed her mind to ask: “what is real and what is her imagination?”…<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/b>\u00a0\u00a0She always looks for perfection. She \u00a0feels like she hasn\u2019t accomplished anything. \u00a0This inner world she is trapped in makes her compare herself to an unreal level which does not even exist.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 Always looking at what she did as a starter for everything, for being free of everything. But the question that she keeps asking herself between every single thought is: \u201cWhat is that big thing she is waiting to accomplish or to have?\u201d She always shakes her head while she mumbles, \u201cI have no clue\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 She never felt \u201cthe moment.\u201d Her sense of time is not there. She never felt it no matter how much she tried. She\u2019s always lost in the idea of \u201ctime\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0<\/b>\u00a0Her days pass without reaching anything. She gets use to the idea that shows her how much she is living outside of this world and she will never be something. Her feelings, passion and desire of being alive are starting to vanish. \u00a0Since she is living inside her thoughts, she can not accept the reality anymore. Her mind always goes towards \u201cThe End\u201d like if it is only another story of hers. The idea of vanishing, being nothing, captures her mind. \u201cWhat will happen after the end? What will happen to us? They said we change, we become \u201csomething else\u201d but that answer never convinced her.<\/p>\n
\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 The person who thinks like her can’t enjoy anything that happens at the moment because the moment for her is \u201cthinking about the future.\u201d She thought of that while she was holding a cup of coffee, thinking \u201chmm this perfect cup of coffee will finish soon.\u201d Maybe it’s better not to think at all.<\/p>\n
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